The Right Direction: Diary of a Free-Flowing Spirit 11.17.18
I had a fun thought the other night. In this stage of my life, and really any time I mention being unsure about what it is I want do to next, I’m brought back to the question of, “If you could do anything at all and money wasn’t an issue, what would you do?” I get this from others, but I also ask myself this question pretty frequently as well. My answer is always a combo of things and never a super clear-cut vision, but the general components have consistently stayed the same for at least the last year. Without getting into specifics, my answer involves: writing, hosting, event planning, things around personal growth + freedom for others, and having time to say yes to travels and adventures with no set schedule.
So here was my thought: I was sitting in bed in the desert, doing my end-of-day writing, and that question popped into my head. I then scanned my days for the past few weeks and how I’ve been spending then and realized I AM DOING ALL THOSE THINGS! It was the sweetest realization and made me feel like simultaneously giggling and getting choked up. I’ve found a way to be exactly where I want to be and it’s no wonder my days have been so joy-filled as of lately.
The only hiccup is that none of these things are currently bringing in any income for me (which, to be fair, is still right in line with that initial question - money is definitely not in this equation). So that’s a minor detail I will need to sort out, and am mentally working on. But for now I’m celebrating getting to a place of doing all the things I want to be doing. Even if some of them are just in the initial planning stages, I am taking steps in the right direction.
A fun celestial bonus has been the appearance of the numbers 11:11 often over the last few weeks (mostly on clocks, but they’ve popped up a couple other places too). I’m a big believer in paying attention to the spiritual synchronicities we see in our lives - as a sign you’re on the right track or confirmation you’re loved and being watched out for. And these numbers always seem to appear when I’m writing and doing the things I love, and so it serves as further confirmation to me that I’m right where I’m supposed to be.
I don’t know how most of these things would connect to sources of income for me, or what I’m supposed to do about that part of this journey, but I do know that it feels really, really good to be right in the middle of where I’m supposed to be. So onward and upward I'll continue to trek.