Don't Worry: Diary of a Free-Flowing Spirit 11.11.18
I know I missed a day but it was because I was busy hanging with friends so I don’t feel too bad about it. And to be honest I don’t feel too excited about writing at the moment because I mostly just want to get a post up so I can finish watching The Emperor’s New Groove that Tara and I started last night.
But I have been thinking about what this upcoming week will look like, and the concept of worry and discerning what your inner voice is speaking to you. As I’ve mentioned before, I feel stuck in the middle of not settling for a job just for having a job’s sake, and of waiting on the voice that’s telling me to hold out for something that’s more in line with things I want to be doing – writing, hosting, event/retreat planning, things that promote and instill wholeness, freedom and healing in others.
(Ah, it’s 11:11 on 11/11 right now so I’m making a big-time wish : )
I very much understand how others (and my ego at times too) think it’s silly and wishful thinking to not take a more proactive stance when it comes to searching for a job, especially when I have no foreseeable income directed my way the rest of this month. But my deep inner being – the same place where I experience feelings of peace and rest and excitement – seems to tell me otherwise. That it’s ok to hold out for a more aligned next step in my career, and that my needs will be met without me having to worry or effort towards them.
So for now I’m continuing to surrender these things and actively choosing not to worry, working on doing things that bring me alignment and get me in a good place (including actually going to two of my happy places this week – Morning Lavender duh, and the desert), and sitting and listening for that voice to guide me to each right next step, even when I can’t see the end of the story. Excited for what’s to come (and for clarity – please God bring me clarity. And money). K, Emperor’s New Groove time.