Cute Pajama Outfit: Diary of a Free-Flowing Spirit 11.13.18

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I spent a good amount of time writing an upcoming post today, so I feel as if that met my personal writing quota for the day. But as somewhat of a preview for that post, and to model a practice I’ve been doing lately, I’ll share a peek into one of my alignment rituals: a rampage of appreciation (basically just listing out every little thing I’m appreciative of for an extended period of time). Here’s what I’ve got for today:

The warm and fuzzy hot water bottle on my feet at the moment, a cozy bed to snuggle up in, the candles that are lit right now, wearing a pajama outfit I like, seeing Molly and Shayda for lunch tomorrow, heading to the desert tomorrow, my phone call with Kels today, time spent at Kit, time spent writing, upcoming events I’m planning and projects I’m excited about, how cute my cat looks right now, the long walk I went on, the weather today, the way the water was extra sparkly, discovering the Unspoken podcast, starting a new audio book, pre-ordering a book I’m excited about, seeing Kalee, being able to buy groceries at the store, looking forward to a car ride by myself tomorrow, lavender tea, the eye masks I’m wearing, re-living Best Lives Retreat memories with J & G, where I live, thinking about being at home with my family for Christmas, getting excited about being in AZ for Thanksgiving with the Artigues, my gold, glittery nails, the way they sound when I’m typing, the fact that it’s been low humidity lately, thinking of projects to do in my room/our house, excited for Christmas on the island and getting our tree, the new eucalyptus soap I got, the Voluspa candle Lauren got me, friends and family that love and support me no matter what.

Good Daydream Day: Diary of a Free-Flowing Spirit 11.12.18

Today was a good day. A good dream day. A good daydream day? Anyways…what I mean is that I spent a good chunk of time working towards dream ideas of mine, and I felt like I saw them move in tangible directions and that felt really nice. I wrote a new blog post (coming soon), I did some planning around a business venture that’s been slowly in the works, and I started to organize an event for a social justice issue that’s near and dear to my heart at the moment. And that felt effing great to start putting action to anger and channel rage-y feelings into powerful and hopeful steps.

So I’m feeling the residual buzz of the joy that comes from doing the kind of work my soul loves doing too. And I’m letting myself get carried away with the snowballing of daydream thoughts rolling through my brain. In a good way. Some days they feel a lot more like a pack of wild butterflies encircling my body that I’m trying to lasso with a rope as useless as a piece of floss. But today I feel clear and focused, with my thoughts neatly organized into lanes like that of a luge track, watching them glide easily and quickly down the hill.

So I will celebrate this good day and the clarity that came after asking for it nicely just yesterday. I will celebrate by watching an ep from season 2 of Making a Murderer, and by snuggling with my hot water bottle which has quickly become my lover and new best friend. Have I talked about that here yet? If not, get ready for the parade of love sonnets I’m prepared to dedicate to it. It’s everything to me.

Till tomorrow, dreamers.

Don't Worry: Diary of a Free-Flowing Spirit 11.11.18

I know I missed a day but it was because I was busy hanging with friends so I don’t feel too bad about it. And to be honest I don’t feel too excited about writing at the moment because I mostly just want to get a post up so I can finish watching The Emperor’s New Groove that Tara and I started last night.

But I have been thinking about what this upcoming week will look like, and the concept of worry and discerning what your inner voice is speaking to you. As I’ve mentioned before, I feel stuck in the middle of not settling for a job just for having a job’s sake, and of waiting on the voice that’s telling me to hold out for something that’s more in line with things I want to be doing – writing, hosting, event/retreat planning, things that promote and instill wholeness, freedom and healing in others.

(Ah, it’s 11:11 on 11/11 right now so I’m making a big-time wish : )

I very much understand how others (and my ego at times too) think it’s silly and wishful thinking to not take a more proactive stance when it comes to searching for a job, especially when I have no foreseeable income directed my way the rest of this month. But my deep inner being – the same place where I experience feelings of peace and rest and excitement – seems to tell me otherwise. That it’s ok to hold out for a more aligned next step in my career, and that my needs will be met without me having to worry or effort towards them.

So for now I’m continuing to surrender these things and actively choosing not to worry, working on doing things that bring me alignment and get me in a good place (including actually going to two of my happy places this week – Morning Lavender duh, and the desert), and sitting and listening for that voice to guide me to each right next step, even when I can’t see the end of the story. Excited for what’s to come (and for clarity – please God bring me clarity. And money). K, Emperor’s New Groove time.