Lately I have shied away from writing any personal posts on my current state of unemployment or even any other struggles I've had because I've been waiting. I was waiting for the tale to finish unfolding before I shared some spectacular story of God's goodness and how He answered all my prayers. Well six months into being unemployed, it's obvious that it has taken a lot longer than what I expected for that prayer to be answered. And while I absolutely can't wait for the day when I get to give God glory for finding me the perfect job, or a wonderful husband, or whatever else I might be waiting patiently on, I realized I was robbing God of the glory He deserves NOW and not just when a prayer was finally answered.
Because the truth is I have been blessed beyond measure in this waiting process and I love that God has made those blessings clear to me to keep me encouraged while I wait. He has blessed me with the kindness and encouragement of others in the form of job opportunities, referrals, mentors who listen to me and affirm me, new friendships, and people who have been praying for me. He has shown me what it looks like to start every day with my hands open saying, "I surrender. I surrender my job situation, my bank account, and even what I'm supposed to do today." He has provided financially in unexpected ways. He is romancing me and allowing me to find my beauty, purpose, and worth in Him as opposed to a husband. He is providing invaluable lessons on love and marriage through other couples, sermons, and even wonderful blogs. He's taken away anxiety about not having a job and allowed me to enjoy this time. And I could keep writing and writing.
The bottom line is that God is good, all the time. He is teaching me what it looks like to wait on Him, in more ways than one, and the waiting is producing more growth in me than I could have ever imagined. It will be awesome when certain chapters of waiting in my life can be closed, but I am no longer going to rush them or view them as a bad thing. Because I am learning that God is in the business of writing beautiful stories, not just happy endings.
"Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord." Psalm 27:14